Miserable Lonely Divorced Old Lady

I need to vent about patience. Something that I seem to have, and many others do not seem to have. Now, I don't have patience for silly things, like ice cream sundaes, but when it comes to big commitments and necessary long journeys, I take baby steps.

There is something that brought this to mind. Marriage.

I feel like everyone around me is getting engaged. I go onto Facebook and see another engagement announcement at least once a week. Some of these people have been together for years, like my one friend who has been with the same person for five years, but some of these people have only known the person that they have engaged for a few months.

Are you freaking kidding me?

Let me put this in perspective. I'm 22 years old. I'm hoping to live until at least.. 80? That means I have at least 58 years left. If I were to get married right now, that means I am going to have to be with that person for the next 58 years (unless I get divorced). Now, going into marriage.. wouldn't you want to try to AVOID needing a future divorce by being patient?

How can you be with someone for a few months and decide that you want to spend the REST of your life with them? The rest of your life is a long fucking time.

No wonder there is a high divorce rate. And a shit load of broken families.

I've been with Kevin for four years now and we've lived together for about 3 and a half years. (I started living in his parent's home right off the bat because my college roommate was a coke snorting herpes infested whore and I was tired of living in my car). Over the four years we've been together, we've both changed a lot. People used to talk to me about the "honeymoon phase" and I didn't think I understood it.

But I understood it after Kevin. It's a period of time when you first fall in love with someone and everything is like a fucking mystical magical land with faeries and unicorns and happiness up the wazoo. For Kevin and me, ours lasted about a year and a half.

I'm not saying that things aren't nice after the honeymoon phase, but the sugar coating melts away. After this melts away, things are different. Personally, I think everyone needs to let that shit melt away before committing to a lifetime together. You need to be out of the "spell" to make proper decisions.

As if this "spell" isn't enough, there is also the fact that people are constantly changing. A few things stay constant, but not everything. Don't you want to watch this person evolve for a bit before committing to them? In the four years I've known Kevin, he's evolved a LOT.

I don't know. I'm not saying that all of these newly engaged youngin's that I know are going to end up divorced. But I'm not going to lie... I wouldn't be surprised at all if I see at least one of them getting divorced within the next five years.

Or who knows, maybe I'm just being cynical.

Maybe they'll all be happily married until the end of time and I'll end up being a miserable lonely divorced old lady. *shrugs*