I learned what a good friend is. Kevin is a good friend. Alex, Nick, Andrew, they're good friends. Keely is a good friend. Nikki and Robert, they are good friends. Good friends are there for you whether you are 100% fine and dandy or 100% miserable and upset. Last night Keely said, "Nicole, I love and care about you so much and I genuinely worry about you when you're sad." That's a real friend.
I learned that my mom loves me but she just can't be there for me the way that I want her to be. I need to accept that. I'm independent, I can get along just fine without her support.
I learned that drinking is fun.. in moderation. Last night was fun. It was great fun. I got really drunk and I had a good time. But that doesn't need to happen much. I look forward to being much more responsible this year. My liver will appreciate it.
I learned that I want to pursue a career. Right now I just have a job. But I also learned that maybe teaching is not for me. I'll probably try it out just to make sure, but honestly writing is my passion. In 2006 I picked teaching because it was practical, but my heart was set on my passion. It looks like my heart won.
I learned to marry my miseries, because artists need their miseries for their work. We all need both the good things and bad things of life. Both are necessary to create a well-rounded human being.
So, this year will be good. I'm starting off with a smile. A big smile. That's really all that I can ask for. Last year was quite frankly a fucking horrible mess. Which gives me all the reason to make this year good. Amazing even. This year needs more laughter and less tears.
I'm determined to follow the right path.
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